I am currently watching the opening ceremony for the Olypics.  And I am awestruck.  Spellbound.  Blown away.  I knew that it was going to be incredible, but this is so much more than I expected.  The music, the lights, the fireworks, the performers.  The drumming, and the painting with their bodies.  IT's amazing!!!!!!!!  The moving blocks.  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!JDF KJLKASJDFKLDSJLFJLAKSJ  I will post more after.  i need to watch the beauty now.

I'm actually updating!  Amazing.  Well, this summer has been pretty damn good, not counting the stress.  I felt a little abandoned for a bit when Mom kept leaving for almost a week at a time to go relive her childhood, or whatever the hell she's doing to get over the divorce.  And I had to say goodbye to a really great friend, who moved away.  I will miss you so much tsuyosaoboetai!  Other people moved too, but this one was the hardest.  I did get to spend a week with her at her new home though, then flew back.  (Course Mum was an hour late to the airport).  I had a lot of fun though, and I was glad to be there for her in what I knew must have been a really tough time.  Not sure how much help I was, but still.   I also went to Ohio, Michigan, and NY with my friend clever_hobbit, and we surprisingly didn't kill each other.  I didn't know the two of us could get along so well!  And we developed far too many inside jokes.  Yes, clever_hobbit, I will steal your kidney.  When that seat belt fails to save you.  OMg, tea!  

Right now, I'm stressed about loans.  Two days to get everything in order, because my dad's tax office is filled  with some of the most incompetent people I have ever had the displeasure to work with.  And they mailed my info late.  WAY late.  So UNH has yet to look at any of my requests.  I'm screwed.  But, always look on the bright side of life, right?  Things'll work out.  I didn't realize until very recently though how little my parents have done to help with college.  All that mail that says "To the Parents of"  got put right on my desk.  All the paperwork, all the scheduling, even dealing with the parent loans was all put on me.  They never even took me to any of my college visits.  It was real depressing to think about.  I told clever_hobbit once that she would understand how uncultured I was if she met my parents.  I think she gets it now.  It's not that they're bad people.  They just expect too much, sometimes, and sometimes they don't always have it together.  At least I try and be cultured though!

Well, things have been good asides from the stress.  I have great friends, and great things ahead of me if I work hard.  And now Spamelot is stuck in my head.  And The Last Goodnight....

Oh.  And Les Miserables.  BEST MUSICAL EVER!  Jean Valjean and Javert will always have a place in my heart.  Can't wait to read the book.  :')

Ugh... So yeah, it's been a while since I posted.   I felt the need to tonight, though.  First off, there are only two days of school left.  That is depressing as hell!  I have never enjoyed life so much as I have enjoyed my senior year.  Yeah, I'm tired of school, but I can't pretend that I'm happy to go.  Especially not with most of my close friends going way far away.  I know I'll meet new people, but damn... I'm going to miss them sooo much!  

Second, it seems like everyone's been misunderstanding me today.  Yeah, I did a dumb thing, but I did consider the person's feelings after, didn't go through with it, and these people were being really terrible to my friend!  I sympathized with her, and I knew she wouldn't do it anyway.  I know I'm not a perfect person.  I know I make mistakes, but I'd like to think that they're relatively few and far between.  I don't consider myself particularly insensitive, or thoughtless, though I know I come off that way at times.   But yeah... I won't get into that.  I feel bad enough as it is, especially with the proportions this whole scenario was driven to.  

Then my other friend misunderstood me when she unloaded some baggage on me and I told her "I can't deal with all this teenage drama, you know?"  I meant it like, "geeze this stuff is rough" and more like, that I hated to see friend's argue and people who've known each other forever to not get along.  That's not how she took it though, and even when I tried to explain myself, she still seemed upset, like I was being an insensitive jerk.  I know that's kind of how it sounded, but it was not what I was going for.  I was actually being highly sympathetic.  I guess I was already stressed from friend A being upset with me.   I don't want her to be thinking badly of me, not when we've been getting along so well, and not when the year's almost done.  I just hope she still realizes, she's one of my greatest friends, and one of the most important people in my life.  Oh, and then there was my Dad's phone call.  The only good news is that he is falling apart over my parents' divorce.  

The bad news?  A chopper from his company went down yesterday, killing the pilot.  Cause of the crash?  The same sort of system for picking up water that he uses on his chopper.  My dad's a firefighter.  Except, instead of using a hose, he puts out the massive forest fires you see on TV by flying over the smoke and flames and dumping water on them.  And it's dangerous work.... I know there's nothing my Father wouldn't sacrifice for this family, but I get so worried sometimes...  And now, he doesn't even really have a family to work for.  And yet, he's still working his tail off to support me, and my Mom (who doesn't understand the concept that we have no money, nor does she want to help out with doing any bills when dad comes home for 4 days a month).  I love him so much.  He's such a wonderful person, and a wonderful mentor.  If anything ever happened to my dad, I would be miserable for so long...

The other bad news, Mom called a realtor, meaning our house is on the market now.  I could sit here and rant about my mother and how foolish she is, and how she doesn't understand finances, and how she's leading my Father on, but I won't.  I'm going to miss the house though.  My dad worked so hard for so many years so that we could have a nice place to live.  He's worked us up to crappy, cockroach-filled apartments in Florida and Mass, to the beautiful home we have today.  The house is really, or was really, the only thing we had going for us.  My family is not wealthy.  We don't have a lot of income to kick around.  We get by, and just barely, but there as always a place to call home.  After years of renting, we had a place that was ours and ours alone.  Not for long. 


But, such is life, and I know it could be worse.  I'm going to get up tomorrow, go to school, and hopefully be my normal cheery self.  That's just the way it works.

So, I was hanging out with tsuyosaoboetai today, which is always a pleasure, when she convinced me to go work a show with her, and I'm so glad I went!  It's a lot of fun, even just taking tickets, and I even got some community service hours for it (which I wasn't expecting).  It really was fun though, and just spending a little extra time with tsuyosaoboetai is great, since I never see her anymore, and she's leaving for High Point in NC!!!

It seems like everyone is leaving, really.  As seniors we all knew the day would come, (or will come, I suppose) but it's coming way too fast!!  Cleverhobbit and Courtney are leaving for Pennsylvania.  Ryan and Lauren are going to New York!  I do have some friends who will be going to school with me, but it's hard to believe that so many of my best and most wonderful friends will be going.  Until we go our seperate ways, however, I will cherish every moment I have.  

And I would totally want waffles after an intimate moment.  Waffles are delicious!

P.S. tsuyosaoboetai , "It's not fall yet"  XD

 So, my friends have noticed that I never made a second post, so here it goes.  Well, the thing that sticks out most clearly in my mind, is the Senior Ball.  That was  two ton ball o' fun (I'm prone to making up phrases).  Well, it was great, even though my dress was a bit...showy.  It didn't want to show that much leg, I swear!  I'm usually very conservative in dress.  Well, conservative is being nice.  I wear baggy clothes that don't match, and never have any idea what I look like.  It's all good though.  My baggy clothes are comfortable.  Well, back on subject, after a few "wardrobe malfunctions" my friend Erin and I got the dress to stay closed at the top (it was a Cheongsam) and it was relatively smooth sailing from there on out.  Pretty embarrassing though.  Also, someone revealed their "true feelings" for me.  I felt bad though, because three dances later, I disappeared for a half hour, trying to fix the dress X_X.  Oh well, it was all worth it.  Even Shogo, the Japanese exchange student, danced a little bit.  He's so shy!  He's very nice though, and I'm glad I got to meet him when he was in our lunch.  Well, this is enough writing for one day.  If you wanna see the dance, it's on Youtube.  http://youtube.com/watch?v=emcwHad7ewE and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56htMOLow_w&NR=1 are my favorites.  Russell is such a nerd.  Oh, well.  Good times, good friends, and some good music.  STOP PLAYING RAP AT SCHOOL FUNCTIONS!  NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR IT!!!  There's my mini-rant for this post.  I would get more into it, but I'm tired of typing.  Tata, then.